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Svetlana de Rohan-Levashova. Revelation

– Anna pronounced sadly. – But what is most important here is that I succeded in
passing it and did not break. My soul remained pure and kind. I am not angry with the
world and people who executed me. I understood why they destroyed us – those who
were "different", who they called Veduns and Vedmas, and sometimes the "demon’s
children". They were simply afraid of us. They were afraid of our being stronger than
them and incomprehensible. They hated us for what we could do, for our Gift. And
also they envied us too much. In fact very few knew that many of our killers secretly
tried to learn everything we could do, but failed. Probably, because their souls were
too dark…

– How is that – learn?! Did not they curse you? Did not they burn you because
they thought you were creations of Devil? – I was totally taken aback.
– That’s right. – Anna nodded. – But at first our executioners tortured us brutally,
trying to know the forbidden, which only we knew. And then they burned us, cutting
out the tongues of many in order that we would not accidentally give away what they
had done to us. You can ask my mother. She went through a lot of things, probably
more than anybody else. That is why she could choose to go away so far after death,
which none of us could.

– Where is your mother now? – Stella asked.
– Oh, she dwells somewhere in the "stranger" worlds. I will never be able to go
there! – Anna whispered with a strange pride in her voice. – But we call her sometimes,
and she comes. She loves and remembers us. – And suddenly sunnily smiling, added:
– And she tells about such miracles!!! I wish I could see them!
– Can’t she help you go there? – Stella was surprised.

– I think, no. – Anna became sad. – She was much stronger than all of us on Earth,
and her "test" was much more terrible than mine. Probably that is why she deserved
greater things. And she was much more talented, of course.
– But why did you need such a frightful test? – I asked carefully. – Why was your
Fate so Wicked? In fact you were not bad; you helped others who did not have a Gift.
Why did they do this to you?

– In order that our soul got strong, I think, that it could endure a lot and not break.
There were a lot of those who broke. They cursed their Gift and renounced it before
death.
– How is it possible?! Is it really possible to renounce yourself?! – Stella jumped
up with indignation.
– It is, dear. You’d better believe it! – The amazing old man, who before was
watching us without interfering in our conversation, pronounced quietly.

– See, grand-dad confirmed it to you. – The girl smiled. – Not all of us are ready
for this kind of test. And not all can endure such pain. But the matter is not even in
pain, but in the strength of our human spirit. In fact after pain there was fear of what
we went through which tenaciously sat in our memory even after death and gnawed
the remaining crumbs of our courage like a worm. It was exactly this fear that mostly
broke people who went through this horror. One had only to intimidate them a little
already in this (posthumous) world and they surrendered at once, becoming obedient

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