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Svetlana de Rohan-Levashova. Revelation

both will wait for me there. The only thing I feel very bad about leaving you here
alone... I love you so much, mummy!

Anna hid her head in my arms, as if looking for protection... and I could not
protect her... I could not save her. I did not find the "key" to Caraffa...
– Forgive me, my sun, for letting you down. I let down both of us... I failed to find
the way to destroy him. Forgive me, Annushka.

An hour flew by unnoticed. We spoke about different things and did not come back
to the murder of the Pope, because we both perfectly knew that we had lost this time...
It did not matter what we wished... Caraffa still lived, and it was the most terrible and
the most important thing. We did not succeed in relieving our world of him. We had
not succeeded in saving good people. He lived despite any attempts or wishes... despite
everything...
– Just don’t give in to him, mummy! I beg you, don’t give up! I know how hard
this all is to you. But we all will be with you. He has no right to live long! He is a killer!
And even if you agree to give him what he wants, he will destroy us anyway. Please,
don’t agree, mother!
The door opened and Caraffa again appeared on the threshold. But now he
seemed very displeased with something. Well I could assume with what... Caraffa was
not sure of his victory anymore. It perturbed him because he had only this last chance
left.

– So, what have you decided, Madonna?
I gathered the whole of my courage to prevent my voice from trembling, and
calmly pronounced:

– I answered this question so many times, Holiness! What could have changed
in such a short time?
I felt I was on the verge of fainting, but on looking into Anna’s eyes shining with
pride, all the bad things suddenly disappeared... So light and beautiful was my daughter
in this frightful moment!
– You went crazy, Madonna! Are you really able to send your own daughter to the
basement so easily? You perfectly know what awaits her there! Come to your senses,
Isidora!

Suddenly Anna came close to Caraffa and pronounced in her clear ringing voice:
– You are neither Judge nor God! You’re just a sinner! That is why the Sinners
Ring burns your dirty fingers! I think it is no accident that you wear it, because you are
the meannest of them! You will not frighten me, Caraffa. And my mother will never
submit to you!

Anna drew herself up and..., spat in the Pope’s face. Caraffa went mortally pale.
I never saw someone turn pale so quickly! His face became ash-grey literally in fraction
of a second... and death blazed up in his burning dark eyes. Still being in a "stupor" at
Anna’s unexpected behavior, I suddenly understood everything. She purposely
provoked Caraffa in order not to linger over the outcome! She wanted a definite
solution now to prevent my futher suffering. She wanted to die as soon as possible...
My heart was twisted with pain. Anna reminded me of the girl Damiana... She decided

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