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Svetlana de Rohan-Levashova. Revelation

– I am sorry I cannot help you, Isidora. Can I do anything for you?

– No, Sever. You cannot, but I’ll be pleased if you stay with me a little... I’m glad
to see you. – I sadly answered and then added. – We got one week... It is highly likely
that after that Caraffa will take our short lives. Tell me, are they really worth so little?
Are we really going to leave so easily like Magdalena did? Will there be really nobody
who would cleanse our world of this monster, Sever?
– I did not come to you to answer old questions, my friend... But I must confess
that you made me do a great deal of thinking, Isidora... You made me see what I have
persistently tried to forget for years. And I agree with you – we are wrong... Our truth
is too "narrow" and inhuman. It smothers our hearts... and we become too cold to judge
correctly what is going on. Magdalena was right saying that our Faith is dead... just
as you’re right, Isidora.

I stared at him with utter surprise unable to believe what I heard! Was this the
same proud and ever-right Sever who did not tolerate even the faintest criticism
directed toward his great Teachers and his beloved Meteora?!!
I did not take my eyes off him trying to get to his pure but tightly shut soul... What
could have changed the opinion he had held for centuries?! What could make him make
change his mind and see the world in a much more human way?
– I know I surprised you. – Sever sadly smiled. – But the fact that I confided in
you will not change the present events. I don’t know how to destroy Caraffa. But the
White Volkhv does. Do you wish to see him once again?

– May I ask what changed you, Sever? – I asked carefully, ignoring his
last question. He reflected for a second, probably, trying to answer as honestly

as possible...
– It happened very long time ago... from the day when Magdalena died. I did not
forgive myself and all of us for her death. But apparently our laws lived in us too deeply
and I had no courage to admit it. When you came, you vividly reminded me of
everything that happened then... you are strong and give yourself to those who need
you the same way she did. You shook up the memory that I’ve tried to kill for centuries...
You brought back to life the Golden Maria in me... I thank you for it, Isidora.

Pain screamed deep in Sever’s eyes. There was so much that I was drowning in
it! I could not believe that his warm and pure soul had opened, that he was at last living
again!
- Sever, what can I do? Aren’t you terrified that monsters like Caraffa run the
world?
– I’ve already told you, Isidora. Let’s go to Meteora again to see the White
Volkhv... Only he can help you. Unfortunately, I cannot...

For the first time I felt his disappointment so vividly... he was truly disappointed by
his helplessness... by how he lived... by his out-of-date TRUTH.
It turns out that the human heart cannot fight with what it has become accustomed
to or what it has believed in for its whole life... That is why Sever could not change his
belief easily and totally, even though realizing that he was wrong. For centuries he
lived believing that he helped people and he did exactly that, which one day would save

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