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Svetlana de Rohan-Levashova. Revelation

Stella shone being incredibly happy to be with me here on Earth, and I was more
and more confused, being unable to find a solution to the ticklish problem.

– It’s so beautiful here and everything is so delicious! I am sure. You are so happy
to eat such things!
– Well, I don’t get this every day. – I laughed.

My grandmother watched me, apparently amusing herself very much with the
situation, but was not going to help me for the time being, as usual first waiting to see
what I would do. But, as bad luck would have it, nothing occurred to me, probably
because of today's too stormy emotions, and I began to panic seriously.
– Aha! Here is your Gran! May I invite mine? – Stella gladly offered.
I almost shouted – No!!! – at once, but did not want to offend my little frend and
with the happiest air I could make at that moment, I gladly said: – Of course, you may!

And the amazing old lady, who I now knew very well, appeared on our threshold.
– Hello, my dearest! I wanted to visit Anna Fedorovna and it resulted in me getting
straight to the feast. You’ll forgive my intrusion, please...

– Please, come in! There is enough room for everybody! – My father offered
affectionately, and very attentively looked at me.
Although Stella’s grandmother did not look at all like my "guest" or
"schoolfellow", dad apparently felt something unusual in her and put all the "blame"
for this "unusualness" on me, because usually I was responsible for every "strange"
thing which happened in our house.
I was so embarrassed that I could not explain anything to him right now that even
my ears turned red. I knew that later, when all guests were gone, I would tell him
everything; meanwhile I could not meet dad’s eyes, because I was not accustomed to
hiding anything from him and was terribly ill at ease.

– What happened to you again, dear? – My mother asked in a low voice. – You
seem to be up in the clouds. May be you are tired? Do you want to lie down?
Mother was truly worried and I felt bad to lie to her. Regrettably, I could not tell
her the truth (in order not to frighten her again) and tried to assure her that everything
was absolutely perfect with me and at the same time feverishly thought of what I have
to do.

– Why are you so nervous? – Stella asked unexpectedly. – It’s because I came?
– Of course not! – I exclaimed, but on seeing her intent look, decided that it was
dishonest to lie to a friend.
– All right, you’ve guessed. It’s just that when I talk to you I look "frozen" to
others and it looks very strange. Especially it frightens my mother. So, I don’t know
how to get out of the situation in order that everybody feels good.

– Why did not you tell me?! – Stella was very surprised. – I wanted to make you
happy, not to disappoint! I will go away right away.
– But you did make me happy! – I objected sincerely. – It’s just because of them...

– Will you come again soon? I missed you. It’s so boring to go for a walk alone.
Gran is lucky

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