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Svetlana de Rohan-Levashova. Revelation

to save itself in order to have a bit of rest and forget about everything, going far away
from the wicked "earthly" world to one where only light reigned...

I knew that Caraffa would not leave me alone for long, despite what I had just
been forced to go through. On the contrary, he would think that pain had weakened
and disarmed me, and maybe exactly in this moment try to make me surrender,
inflicting the next horrific blow...
Days passed, but to my greatest surprise, Caraffa did not show up... It was an
enormous relief, but unfortunately, it did not allow me to relax. Because every instant
I expected whatever new meanness his dark and wicked soul would invent for me...

The pain was slowly becoming duller with every passing day, mainly, due to a
stunningly unexpected and joyful event that happened a couple of weeks before – I
could hear my dead father!
I was unable to see him, but heard him very clearly and understood every word,
as if he were right next to me. At first I did not believe it, thinking that I simply raved
because of total emaciation. But he repeated the call... Indeed, it was my father!
I was beside myself with happiness and all the time I was afraid that suddenly,
right now, he would disappear! But my father stayed. Gradually I calmed down and at
last could answer him...

– Is it really you!? Where are you now? Why can I not see you?
– My sweet daughter... you don’t see me my dear because you’re exhausted. Anna
sees me. I visited her. And you will see me, dear one. You just need time to calm down.

Pure familiar warmth spread all over my body, wrapping me with joy and light...
– How are you, father!? Tell me how is this other life? What does it look like?
– It’s wonderful, dear! A bit unusual and so unlike our former earthly one! People
live here in their own worlds. And they are so beautiful, these "worlds"! To tell
the truth I have still failed to create one. Probably it’s too early... – The voice fell
silent for a second, as if hesitating whether to speak further.

– Your Girolamo met me, daughter... He is just as living and loving as he was on
Earth... He misses you so much. He asked me to tell you that he loves you very dearly
there too... and that he is waiting for you whenever you come... and your mother is with
us too. We all love and wait for you, dear. We all miss you terribly... Take care of
yourself, sweetheart. Don’t give Caraffa the joy of taunting you.
– Will you come to me again father? Will I hear you again? – I begged, being
afraid that he might suddenly disappear.

– Be calm daughter, now it is my world and Caraffa’s power does not extend to
it. I will never leave either you or Anna. I will come to you as soon as you call. Calm
down, dear.
– What do you feel, father? Do you feel anything? – I asked, feeling slightly
embarassed about the naive question.
– I feel everything the same way I felt on Earth only much stronger. Imagine a
pencil picture suddenly filled with colour – all my feelings and thoughts are much
stronger and more vivid. There is one more thing... The sense of freedom is absolutely
shocking! I feel as if I am the same as I always was, but at the same time I am completely

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