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Svetlana de Rohan-Levashova. Revelation

abandon you, but it was not her choice. Do you remember how long and seriously she
was ill? – The girl nodded. – It was the illness that forced her to leave you. But now
she must go to the new world where she will live. And to do so, she wants to be sure
that you know how much she loves you.

The girl sadly looked at me and quietly asked:
– Does she live with angels now? My dad said that she lives in the place where
everything is like on the postcards which I received at Christmas, where there were
such beautiful winged angels... Why did not she take me with her?

– Because you must live your life here, dear, and then you will go to the same
world where your mum now is.
The girl began to shine.
– So, I shall see her there? – She joyfully prattled.

– Of course, Alinushka. Therefore you only have to be a patient girl and help
your mother now, if you love her so much.
– What must I do? – The little child asked very seriously.

– Just think of her and remember her, because she sees you. And if you stop
being sad, your mother will finally find rest.
– Does she now see me? – The girl asked and her lips treacherously began to
twitch.
– Yes, dear.

She became silent for some instants, as if gathering her inward strength, and then
firmly squeezed her fists and whispered:
– I will be a very good girl, mummy … you go… go, please. I love you so much!

Tears rolled down her pale cheeks like big peas, but her face was very serious
and concentrated. Life had inflicted the first cruel blow upon her and it seemed that
this little, so deeply hurt, girl suddenly realized some very grown-up thing, and now
tried in earnest and openly to accept it. My heart was torn apart with pity for these
two unhappy and so nice creatures, but unfortunately, I could not help them in
anything more. The surrounding world was incredibly light and beautiful, but it
already could not be their common world anymore.
Sometimes life can be very cruel, and we never know what the lesson of pain or
loss prepared for us really means. Probably there is some truth in that: without losses,
it is impossible to comprehend what fate gives us, no matter whether it comes by right
or lucky chance. But what could this unhappy girl, shriveling like a small injured
animal, comprehend when the world suddenly threw at her all the cruelty and pain of
the most frightful loss?
I sat with them for a long time and tried to do my best to help them both to find
some peace of mind. I remembered my grandpa and the terrible pain which his death
brought me. How hard it would be for this fragile, vulnerable girl to lose the dearest
creature in the world – her mother?

We never reflect on the fact that those who fate takes from us for one or another
reason suffer the consequences of their death much deeper than we. We feel pain from

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